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If you know me personally, you either earned this side of me or somehow stalked your way here. If you don't know me, you probably stumbled here by chance. I don't write for an audience; any views on this site reflect, to some degree, how I want to portray myself to me and me only. It's an exercise in creative coding, an outlet that isn't social media, and a diary of sorts.
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Who am I? x

my identity: always under construction.

i am not anonymous, and i don't want to be. i'm more American than Chinese. i only existed since 2003. i'm nearsighted and righthanded and lost. i'm inv(isabel). i do not intend to scare you on tomorrow's feed or your email inbox. i do not exchange this handle like an eye or an eye, a follower for a following. i do not write to sell my soul like a tennis shoe.1

i believe i should write as if my words run through radio waves, imperceptible except to those who know where to tune in. i do not know of your existence and won't stop to inquire your intentions — unless you prefer to announce your presence in my guestbook.

it's far too possible to find me elsewhere; a couple queries on conventional search engines and i once again become a falsely polished presentation on the white background of a corporate website. but wherever else you find me, this is the only place i remain, invisabel and invisabel and invisabel. i'm here because i believe the handmade web can become a transformative tool for self-expression and identity formation. i'm here because i'm more than the 10-second stories or 10-photo slides of curated moments with snarky one-line captions. i'm here because i'm imperfect, and won't pretend to be otherwise. the internet can be a beautifully flawed place if we make it so.


1. "Pandora's Vox: On Community in Cyberspace" (1994)

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